He has his own unique way of saying “I love you.” It is so rarely direct, and then only ever in private. But, having spent so many years so close to him, so many years seeing the smallest idiosyncrasies day in and day out, I know when he says it.
Sometimes it is in his touch as he brushes his hand against my waist. Slightly more tender than usual. It is a gentle caress he uses just to make sure that I am real and not just a, as he says, “angel I saw within my dreams.” But then he grabs hard and pulls me against him or pushes me against a wall then shoves himself so close to me my heart stops all together and I feel he
The world is full of heads hung low
Terrified children trying not to show their faces, their pain
Stashed away in their hiding places
Crying in the rain
We hold up masks with painted smiles
And happy eyes
Hoping but fearing someone will realize the pain behind
This happy facade
We scream up “Why” to a silent God
Thinking we’re alone
That no one will see
What goes on in our broken homes
Forgotten under the covers, trying not to be.
Some of us go further trying to hide
The smiling mask is not enough to survive
So we cover up more
We shelter who we are
The parts inside we once adored are now too fragile to keep in sight
If we l
"I don't even know why I'm here." She said as tears began streaming down her cheeks. She tore her gaze away from me, unable to look into my eyes a moment longer. Her throat caught. She could barely speak behind her sadness. "I don't even know why I came. All I know is that I feel I owe you so much, you have done so much for me and I feel obligated to go out of my way, and bend over backwards to help your every whim."
With each word she grew louder, her anger burning like a fuse; every thought bringing her closer to bursting. "I am just so infatuated with how much you helped me but I don't want to be here. I don't want to do this. Yet here I
Unbroken Smile (Part 1) by LuridThoughts, literature
Literature
Unbroken Smile (Part 1)
Though now it was so long ago, I remember when I first met Jennifer. She was the first real person I feel I had ever known and we created such a beautiful relationship. I was a whirlwind back then. A twisting flurry of self hatred, empty beer bottles, and razor blades. What a mess. But over the years of having Jen in my life those raging winds of adolescence faded and I found myself growing into someone I am now happy to be. All thanks to her inspiration.
It was many years ago now, back when we were in school; a battlefield of raining insults and exploding humiliation. Endless wars between gangs of cliques erupting in devastating pranks and
Whenever I look at the night sky I am filled with a beautiful sadness.
For in their shimmering light I see you, my love, and it is unbelievably lovely.
But then, when I reach out to touch them, I am reminded just how far away you are.
Have you ever woken up one morning
And everything just doesn't feel quite right?
Have you ever just wanted to curl back up
And pretend that the day never came?
But despite those feelings you force yourself awake
because you know things need to be done.
Have you ever spent the whole day thinking
That you wish you could just go back to sleep?
Have you ever drifted aimlessly
Not really feeling alive?
It's like walking on the moon, or swimming in jello
Surreal, slow motion, time passing you by.
Have you ever felt you weren't alone
Though no one is around?
Have you ever felt you were being watch
When not a soul can be found?
The co
He has his own unique way of saying “I love you.” It is so rarely direct, and then only ever in private. But, having spent so many years so close to him, so many years seeing the smallest idiosyncrasies day in and day out, I know when he says it.
Sometimes it is in his touch as he brushes his hand against my waist. Slightly more tender than usual. It is a gentle caress he uses just to make sure that I am real and not just a, as he says, “angel I saw within my dreams.” But then he grabs hard and pulls me against him or pushes me against a wall then shoves himself so close to me my heart stops all together and I feel he
The world is full of heads hung low
Terrified children trying not to show their faces, their pain
Stashed away in their hiding places
Crying in the rain
We hold up masks with painted smiles
And happy eyes
Hoping but fearing someone will realize the pain behind
This happy facade
We scream up “Why” to a silent God
Thinking we’re alone
That no one will see
What goes on in our broken homes
Forgotten under the covers, trying not to be.
Some of us go further trying to hide
The smiling mask is not enough to survive
So we cover up more
We shelter who we are
The parts inside we once adored are now too fragile to keep in sight
If we l
"I don't even know why I'm here." She said as tears began streaming down her cheeks. She tore her gaze away from me, unable to look into my eyes a moment longer. Her throat caught. She could barely speak behind her sadness. "I don't even know why I came. All I know is that I feel I owe you so much, you have done so much for me and I feel obligated to go out of my way, and bend over backwards to help your every whim."
With each word she grew louder, her anger burning like a fuse; every thought bringing her closer to bursting. "I am just so infatuated with how much you helped me but I don't want to be here. I don't want to do this. Yet here I
Unbroken Smile (Part 1) by LuridThoughts, literature
Literature
Unbroken Smile (Part 1)
Though now it was so long ago, I remember when I first met Jennifer. She was the first real person I feel I had ever known and we created such a beautiful relationship. I was a whirlwind back then. A twisting flurry of self hatred, empty beer bottles, and razor blades. What a mess. But over the years of having Jen in my life those raging winds of adolescence faded and I found myself growing into someone I am now happy to be. All thanks to her inspiration.
It was many years ago now, back when we were in school; a battlefield of raining insults and exploding humiliation. Endless wars between gangs of cliques erupting in devastating pranks and
Whenever I look at the night sky I am filled with a beautiful sadness.
For in their shimmering light I see you, my love, and it is unbelievably lovely.
But then, when I reach out to touch them, I am reminded just how far away you are.
Have you ever woken up one morning
And everything just doesn't feel quite right?
Have you ever just wanted to curl back up
And pretend that the day never came?
But despite those feelings you force yourself awake
because you know things need to be done.
Have you ever spent the whole day thinking
That you wish you could just go back to sleep?
Have you ever drifted aimlessly
Not really feeling alive?
It's like walking on the moon, or swimming in jello
Surreal, slow motion, time passing you by.
Have you ever felt you weren't alone
Though no one is around?
Have you ever felt you were being watch
When not a soul can be found?
The co
This is my first attempt at actually exposing my stories to the general public. Many of the things written about are based upon personal experience, either first hand or through those I care about. The reason I post them into fiction is because in many I make up thoughts and reasons for true physical actions. Generally the stories are an attempt to restrain and perhaps one day control my insanity.
Please post comments or suggestions. I always appreciate them and I'm willing to listen to anything you have to say.
Other Interests
Gothic things, classical music, philosophy and psychology.
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